Monday, May 9, 2011

Grace - inspite of me

3 traits of Fallen Man
- Seeks own comfort
- Seeks own protection
- Thinks one responsible to bless himself

I really thought I was fine. I really felt that after 3 months, I had gotten over it. Had I? No. It was a front. A front that even I believed to my core. I sought my own comfort. It came in many forms, but it wasn't God. No, deep down I blamed Him. "Why did God put me through that?" "I didn't deserve that!" I felt that I was mentally stronger because of it. Oh, I was mentally strong alright. Strong enough to not let anyone in. I could only trust myself. I could only comfort myself. I could only protect myself.

With everything that happened though, I had a great job and it kept me afloat. I felt it was my determination - my hardwork and willingness to graduate with a very respectable degree in 3 years and get a great job after college that started my path towards a great career.

I was terribly wrong. God put me through those things because he LOVED me. I was determined to do the wrong thing and make the wrong decisions and turn my head to things I noticed. But God let me go through those things and he delivered me out. That was God and his love.

Did I will myself to success through my hardwork? No. It was God's grace. Inspite of all my selfish actions and sin, God's grace kept me afloat. He didn't give me so much that I couldn't keep standing, but enough to get me where I needed to be.
That was God and his grace.

I'm so very blessed. God has been there every step of the way and I'm so very thankful. I leave you with this quote from Charles Spurgeon -

"I take it that the highest proof of Christ’s power is not that he offers salvation, not that he bids you take it if you will, but that when you reject it, when you hate it, when you despise it, he has a power whereby he can change your mind, make you think differently from your former thoughts, and turn you from the error of your ways."